I am an impatient person. Almost nothing happens fast enough for me. I want things yesterday. Wait for something? No thanks. This is an attitude supported by our society, in my opinion. There’s an underlying belief that if something isn’t happening on our timeline we need to move on. I notice in myself and others that we don’t want to wait – we want things to happen instantaneously.
If we only accept and see reality as it is, how can we create a better future? Many of us give up on directing the future because we see current patterns in our personal lives or patterns in society as inevitable processes. When we allow our lives to go on autopilot, we forfeit our personal power.
Life does not happen to us, life happens because of us! Many of the situations we find ourselves in today are based on choices we made in the past. Although we can’t possibly control everything in our lives, we have a lot more power to direct our future than we often realize.
On Wednesday, I had a full-on meltdown. I’m talking lying on the floor while tears streamed down my cheeks. What precipitated the meltdown was feeling like I’m not fully utilizing my talents, and at the same time unclear what precisely that means. What am I doing with my life and how can I make money doing what I love? Add in a dose of doubt that my dreams are even possible, and you have a synthesis of my breakdown.
Last weekend, I went home to visit my family. Lately, I’ve felt a change coming—a new adventure waiting for me, manifesting now only as the goose bumps riding my forearms. Knowing that I might soon find myself far from my loved ones, I went home. It rained all weekend—grey skies and even a surprise mid-May snowstorm.